It’s Been Quite a Year

I don’t even know where to begin with this post. Today is a very significant day in my life.  Why?  Because 1 year ago I was called into a meeting and was informed that my position as student pastor at Oakbrook Church in Kokomo, In. was being eliminated.  If I am going to be completely honest, all of this still stirs up emotion in me.  That’s what happens when you invest 4 years of your life into something only for it to be completely gone within 15 minutes in a meeting behind closed doors.  When you are in youth ministry, it’s not just a job.  It’s not just about making enough money for my family to live on.  It’s about the relationships that you invest in and poor your life into.  One year ago, my relational world was turned completely upside down.  It’s hard to convey WHAT emotions this stirs up in me, but I know that it is NOT bitterness or anger.  I have literally worked through all of this in this past year and come to the conclusion that it is more of a grieving process that I went through.  It was a sense of complete loss.  The beautiful thing through all of this is that GOD’S PLAN IS BIGGER THAN MY EMOTIONS!  I am beginning to realize that God had me at Oakbrook for those 4 years to do something specific… and I can honestly say that I faithfully went after what I felt God was calling me to do, and when that task was up, it was as if God was saying, “Now I have something else for you.”  That something else is investing in the students of Hopevale Church in Saginaw, Mi.  So on one of the HARDEST days in my youth ministry life… I am more positive and more convinced than ever that God had his fingerprints all over that day 1 year ago.    I still hurt from it, and still miss my friends every single day, and still miss the students I spent almost all of their middle and high school years with… But God is bigger, and has given me a deep love for the people and students and staff at Hopevale Church.  “God gives us the impossible to trust Him for the incredible.”

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